Monthly Archives: June 2015

Missing My Dad

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No more long Sunday drives

Through the quiet countryside.

No more seeing his smiling face

When I find him in his favorite place.

No more watching Mr.Green

Or some other PBS comedy

And hear him laugh aloud

With his laughter filling the house.

No more hearing sometimes stern and sometimes gentle voice;

It is silent now like a deep, empty void.

No more seeing him hunched over in the garage

Determined to fix the truck, tractor, or car.

No more watching him in the fields

Planting, harvesting, or tilling.

No more playing with him outside

Teaching me to play ball, oh how he tried.

Dad could coach me to hit here and there

But I was not meant to be a softball player.

No more fishing at the little pond

Where once I caught a trout with my own rod.

Dad said my fish was too small

So he unhooked it and gently let it go.

No more summer celebrations or holidays

To see him so joyful and to wish him Happy Birthday.

No more waiting in the dark and the late night

To see his car arrive by the beam of his headlights.

For many nights I had laid in bed wide awake

Until I knew dad was home from work and was safe.

Also no more seeing him suffer in great pain

As illness riddled his once strong and tall frame.

For he lived with increased pain for years;

Some days were good but others full of hurt and fear.

But now I know he lives in another world far above

Inside of God’s great grace and amazing love.

He is alive and well in the lofty realms of heaven

Living forever in God’s everlasting kingdom.

Loss of a Dream

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The loss of a dream

Drains my hope until the Lord

inspires my still soul.

He opens my eyes

With hope renewed and keeps my

Heart forever true.

Focused on him in

His home above, I’m anchored

In faith and his love.

He remains in my

Heart from morning’s dew and through

Night’s shadowy rule.

Now onward I go

Through this new day, trusting

In him all the way.

When Feelings take Charge

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When unsuppressed feelings take charge,

I often overindulge my yearning heart.

Oh yes, that’s the deep danger of

Releasing myself in worldly lust and love.

And when that passion ceases and finally ends

My soul is torn and empty once again.

I need to safely guard my wayward heart

In everlasting truth and the way of the Lord.

He wants me to turn and to flee far from sin

Knowing it breaks and tears my heart within.

It burdens my spirit and leaves great pain

With feelings of guilt and hidden shame.

Oh such sad deep grief I often do bear

When I’ve fallen into sin’s deceptive snare.

Time to be still and quietly kneel before

The Lord admitting in my own words,

“Lord, I have sinned again  and am so sorry;

Please do forgive me and still love me.

Help me to turn away on this new day

From this great sin that impedes my way.

Help me to do my best to live and be still

Inside the pleasant boundaries of your good will.

Thank you for sending Jesus to give

His own life so that I may forever live.

For upon that cross oh so many years ago

He paid for all the wickedness of my sinful soul.

Help me to constantly remember you through this new day

And lead me Lord renewed as I journey along life’s way.”