Category Archives: poetry

Keeping my HEART on Jesus

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Also in my own quiet way I am trying to keep my heart centered on Jesus in my effort to push away the gnawing pain that keeps trying to seep it’s way in. I need to let Jesus, my only true hope, dwell and shine in there so that he can push all the darkness away:

Humble yet hopeful with
Earnest love and joyful
Admiration and anticipation of
Resurrected Jesus, the Only
True Son of God

My Ballerina Shoes

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Several years have passed since this silly tale came true;

Of the time I wore my midnight black ballerina shoes

I was shopping one bright day with the sky so vividly blue

As I needed new shoes for the work I do

I needed to dress up and I needed to be casual too

So I went searching for a pair of black dressy but casual shoes

I searched the shelves and found my size

And I found these black, low heeled shoes, oh how wise!

Oh yes, short heels are just right for me

Otherwise I may topple most embarrassingly.

How I so wish I could be taller

but for safety I must remain flat-footed and smaller.

These shoes were open style slippers with thin straps

Which wound across my feet like slender wraps.

With delight I thought, “how so very cute

for they resemble ballerina shoes!”

I tried them on and since they fit oh just fine

I bought them and journeyed back into the sunshine.

I wore my new shoes to work and I wore them to church

Everywhere I went others did look and not just a few

I received many positive comments about my ballerina shoes.

“Oh look those are the cutest shoes

And your feet look so dainty in that midnight hue!”

I received compliments in the office, on the street and in the stairwell.

I heard so many nice comments that my small head began to swell.

I loved hearing such kind words all about me

That I wore my ballerina shoes ever so constantly

Even at church, as I hurried in late

A handsome usher’s eyes stared at my feet with his bright blue gaze!

Whether the compliments came direct or indirect,

I devoured them all, oh yes, I just ate them up!

Weather didn’t matter; sunshine, rain, or storm

I slid into those dainty shoes early every morn.

Then came winter with the north wind and bitter cold

And then arrived the frigid rain and drifts of snow.

I didn’t want to give up wearing my ballerina shoes

So I wondered and wondered what to do.

Oh I know, I’ll wear warm socks as black as my shoes

Oh, yes, now I will still look so very dainty and cute!!

So I kept on wearing my pretty ballerina shoes

With socks the color of dark midnight hue

And I couldn’t believe it, wouldn’t you know?

I received even more compliments, oh way to go!!

I so enjoyed looking so pretty and nice.

Isn’t it lucky that I didn’t fall on the ice?

I wore my favorite shoes through the winter, spring, summer and fall

Enjoying compliments from everyone in the elevator and the hall

For once at the waiting elevator, I stepped daintily inside

“Hey, I like your shoes!” exclaimed a woman holding groceries at her side

Oh, yes, my swelled head remained poised so incredibly high

With my heightened ego reaching the lofty sky!

But alas, what was I going to do?

For something was wrong with my pretty ballerina shoes

as the soles beneath have started to wear

And pebbles I could feel embedded in there.

Oh yes and cracks began to show through

My once pretty and dainty ballerina shoes!

I knew the end was coming all too soon

When I could no longer wear my ballerina shoes.

I vainly searched for another pair, oh how I tried

But none could be found and I so deeply sighed

I bought another pair of black slip on shoes

But they are not as dainty or nearly as cute

And with a soft sigh of dismay,

I reluctantly threw my ballerina shoes away.

And the dear Lord seemed to gently say,

“Good, that is enough of you

parading in  your ballerina shoes!”

Summer Slipping Away

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Oh no oh my, oh look at how time does fly!

It seems just yesterday, that summer just came

Although a bit cool and some drenching rain

But now oh no! But now look, oh woe!

Summer is quietly slipping with each passing evening

Must enjoy and treasure this time while I still can;

I must soak in the warmth and beaming sunshine.

Before the hot blowing breeze become intensely freezing

And before the stately trees are stripped bare of their fluttering leaves.

Oh yes and before the lush green landscape becomes heavy laden

With snow so blinding, so hurling that there’s no escaping!

But oh, let me slow down and pause for this intervening clause,

Like an old friend, autumn will first come with brilliant shades of red, orange and

Yellow before they fall away turning a dull brown.

Humidity will lessen its grip leaving the atmosphere fresh and

Clear; no longer heavy and thick.

Oh yes, gentle Autumn will wrap itself around me

With its sweet aromas and cool blowing breeze.

But still I need to decide today with no further delay

To enjoy this sizzling summer before it finally slips away.

Finding REFUGE in God

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During this past week, I have been thinking about how God is my refuge,  how he provides me a quiet and peaceful sanctuary if only I would just remember and look to him:

Rest and spiritual restoration

Eternal peace and safety through the

Forgiveness  of sins and love of God who grants us

Unearned and undeserved

Grace, mercy, and his free gift of

Everlasting life through Jesus, His Son

And while dwelling on this, I went searching for a special verse in the Bible about finding REFUGE in God and this is what I found:

Psalm 62:8 (Holy Bible (New International Version):

“Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him for God is our refuge.”

Keep on Believing

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I awoke this morning filled with many worries and wishing all my troubles away.

I prayed to my Lord but didn’t really believe he would answer me today.

It was a long day ahead of me and I rolled out of bed so very reluctantly.

I ate a little breakfast and turned on some news.

Although storms and wind are predicted, the sky is a brilliant blue!

It was a sign of hope that God had left for me

if only I’d stop doubting and just believe.

I made my way to work helping people throughout the day

While all the time worrying and wishing my own troubles away.

I longingly check my mailbox at my work office

Hoping for some correspondence to ease my troubles a bit

But nothing is there so I continue the day with worries to bear

I help a few more people trying to ease their worries and woes

Get one problem solved, but a few more to go!

My day is almost complete, have just one more person to meet.

She has a complex dilemma and so we devise a plausible plan

To satisfy her worries and restore hopefulness once again.

Back to the office I go still troubling over my own woes

I check my mailbox one more time searching hard to see

Lo, a yellow piece of mail; ah, I then knew the Lord had answered me.

Why do I continue to worry so much; why do I not fully believe?

For the Lord is always listening and quietly watching over me.

And I’m reminded that he gives me plenty of reasons

To not doubt him but just keep on believing.

Hiding in a Cocoon

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I’m trying to beckon that person deep inside of me.

I’m yearning to share myself with others, you see.

I’m trying to spread my wings but there isn’t any room.

I am so shy and nearly too late, I’m trying to grow and bloom.

Is there anyone out there?

 I anxiously wonder.

Does anyone see me hiding in my little cocoon?

I wistfully peek out at the sky, sun and moon

When afraid, my voice is but a lonely squeak.

And no one hears when I meekly speak.

My ears are of little help

As I miss a few syllables.

I come out and strain to hear what others have to say

I try to guess and find I’m wrong, oh, what a tearful day.

When I find I’m in error I receive an unkind scorn

And I hurt inside because I truly mean no harm.

So back into hiding I go; back into my little cocoon

Where there is no room to grow and no room to bloom.

A special note about this poem; my need to “hide” at times is often due to my extreme shyness in some social situations.  I just become incredibly quiet and my hearing impairment also interferes. I do have hearing aids but they do not help in every situation. While the hearing aid amplifies someone I want to hear, it also amplifies every sound around me and the voices I want to hear get lost in the noise around me.

Trying To Trust God Today

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I’m trying to trust God today and not rush in anything I do or say.

Such a challenging thing to do, to just trust, believe and to God stay true.

So many times, I just won’t believe, if one mishap occurs, I fail so miserably.

I fail to stop, pray and wait for God to show me which path to take.

I fail to pause and quietly listen to the loving and guiding words coming from him.

When trouble does suddenly brew, I tense up tight wondering, “What should I do?”

In my anxious and frantic state I might cry out, “Now, what? Who made this mistake?”

So I fume to God’s dismay refusing his tender nudge to accept his wiser way.

So often I fail to understand God’s love and his gentle guiding hand.

I fail to joyfully gaze and see, his fatherly eyes silently watching me.

I fail to believe and know that he’s determined where my path should go.

I fail to sit so quietly and just let his perfect calming peace come rest in me.

But today, I am trying hard to keep my eyes closely focused on the Lord

Therefore I am trying to trust God today and not rush in anything I do or say.